I’ve been reading similar blogs all over the place and thought it was a good idea to note down things I won’t be doing in 2011. This also gave me an opportunity to doodle on my new phone.
I will not criticize
“If her past were your past, her pain your pain, her level of consciousness your level of consciousness, you would think and act exactly as she does. With this realization comes forgiveness, compassion, peace.” — Eckhart Tolle
The past few years I’ve been through some very transformational changes and this has made me feel like I’m the Superman of all things wisdom. It is time to drop this tone! People really close to me have suffered for years from my “wise” suggestions on how they should change the process and make something right because I obviously know better. May be I do, may be I don’t but it is up-to every individual to learn their own way.
I’ve only lived my life, not theirs so I cannot make a critical judgement on why they chose to take certain actions and do things I wouldn’t if I was them! The uninvited critic in me needs to go on a vacation for life, starting 2012.
I will not trust everyone and their mother
‘Cause I don’t trust these bitches
I don’t, I don’t trust these bitches
They might catch me slippin’
So you’re the only one
Oh Oh, trust issues
Drizzy Drake sang what 2011 has taught me through some bitter experiences. I am an open book, doesn’t mean everyone I meet has the best intentions for me. I’m not naive but I like to believe people are inherently good. The thought of meeting new people has always made me want to puke rainbows, it excites me from the bottom of my heart but the sad, sad, very sad truth is that people are not that simple or even real. In 2012, I will not make unnecessary fake friends. I shall not put my trust out there as if it was a drunk desperate girl hoping to get laid at the club!
I will be expressive
For most of my life, I’ve been called the ‘ice princess’. The past couple years presented me with emotions that I didn’t know how to handle. Rather than holding everything in and then having words explode out like a broken dam, from now on moving forward I will be more expressive. If I hate something, I’ll state my opinion clearly. Every-time I feel like expressing loving feelings, I will do it. I have random phases when I want to tell people I love just how much I love them. Life is short and my heart’s wisdom knows better than an over thinking/self conscious ego!
I will cut loose
I got this one a while ago from my favorite show Suits. There is a part where Mike’s childhood friend Trevor becomes a burden on him and starts dragging him down the same old spiral of mess. It is during this part when Harvey tells Mike to ‘cut him loose’.
If something is bringing you down, pushing you back in your old patterns, it is time to cut that person loose. Life is about evolution. From now on, I’m going to cut loose everything and everyone that pushes me back to get stuck in my old patterns. I need to look out for my growth and happiness.
I will take the time to discover new things and learn
I spent the second half of 2011 finding out a lot of new things. New music, new books, new ideas, new movies…I want to continue this forward. The internet is so amazing and endless. It is stupid to not give everything a chance. I’ve found a bunch of cool websites in 2011 and that one calls for another blog post. I want to practice dancing more seriously and start learning another language.
Lastly, I’m going to start taking things a little less seriously. Life is not a race, time is just a fragment of our imagination. Rather than making myself anxious and stressing my nerves worrying about the future, I want to take time doing the things that bring me happiness and help me express myself. Stuff is not right but eventually it will all fall in place at its own pace.
Final goodbye to you 2011, you were a series of overly dramatic unexpected changes. I never thought I’d find myself reviewing my year, may be turning 27 has reminded me that I need to start assessing my actions and prepare myself for the Saturn return!
Re-read, re-write, redo, undo as No Doubt said.
